April 2012
148 posts
Day 60:
Smart girls are the overthinkers, the insecure ones, the different ones. They know what the real world is like. They analyze every little thing in life. Why? To avoid getting hurt. To find happiness. They stay up at night trying to think about every possible situation to get through all the problems. They think too much. They trust fewer people. Their insecurity proves their respect...
Day 59:
In one day u could cry, laugh, love, fight.
Try to think that as much as life gives u, it’ll take from u.
As many tears u shed, u’ll laugh.
This belief can help you make peace with life.
It’ll help u accept all.
It’ll give u hope.
It’ll let u appreciate the good moments, as much as u hate the bad ones.
It’ll teach u how to be thankful.
We could...
Day 57:
Why can’t I just do what my head tells me to.
Why can’t I say what my head tells me to.
Why can’t I go where my head tells me to.
Reality is so different from the scenario in my head.
It never goes according to script.
The surrounding effects my actions.
I am defined by what’s around me.
I think every1 is.
Is it living a double life? One in my head and one...
Day 57:
Why can’t I just do what my head tells me to.
Why can’t I say what my head tells me to.
Why can’t I go where my head tells me to.
Reality is so different from the scenario in my head.
It never goes according to script.
The surrounding effects my actions.
I am defined by what’s around me.
I think every1 is.
Is it living a double life? One in my head and one...
Day 56:
I want to be out there exploring new places, walking with no destination, taking pictures, talking to strangers.
Nothing planned, nothing scheduled.
All the time ahead of me with no1 and nothing to hold me.
Nothing wild, nothing extreme; me myself and I out there.
No expectations, no obligations, no responsibilities.
As free as I can be.
Have my time to think about everything with...
Day 55:
It almost happened.
Everything in a second started to change.
World seemed different; work, home, car, music everything was different.
Even food tasted different.
Acted cool, made myself look strong.
I was devastated, hated every second of it.
Thoughts kept on coming, river of tears rolled down my eyes.
It was hard, it felt like a dream; a nightmare actually.
I kept myself busy,...
Day 54:
الأيام الحلوة بتعدي في ثواني
الأيام الحلوة ما بترجعش تاني
طعم الحب تغير وقت الفرح صغير
أكبر لحظة ود وحب وصدق زمانها قصير
الحلو بيتمرر والجرح بيتكرر
نجرح نإلم نقسى ونظلم وغلطنا بيتبرر
اللي نحبه بنودعه واللي في إيدنا بنضيعه
واللي ناسينا عايش فينا واللي شارينا بنخدعه
ولا في الشدة حبايب ولا في الدمعة قرايب
كله في جرحك مرحك مرك نارك ألمك غايب
حبل الود اتسيب طعم الظلم يشيب...
Day 53:
It all repeats itself.
Nothing is special.
It’s all the same.
No matter how hard I try to convince myself it’s different reality kicks in.
One bad experience ruled over my mind.
One bad experience made me translate everything into a sign, into a fight, into cheating.
One bad experience made me think the worst out of everything and everyone.
But its not just me,...
Day 52:
On day 46 I was saying that the only way to prevent the fall is by ending all which doesn’t make sense, some1 answered that nothing makes sense but somethings make more sense than others so never end things when they are good.. Just wait for something that will come along the way and end it. But you can’t see the dead end and just keep on going. That’s insanity you...
Day 51:
نحن نحب الماضي لانه ذهب، ولو عاد لكرهناه.
We tend to forget the worst in our past and dwell on its absence where we should be thankful it’s gone.
We hate change.
No matter what we feel, we don’t want the change.
No matter what we are suffering from, we don’t want the change.
We don’t want any1 to leave, anything to change, anything to loose.
No1 that chose...
Day 50:
My mind is a like a kid.
Whatever u tell it, it believes it.
Whatever thought I think alone, gets to me.
Even if it didn’t happen, my mind choose to believe it and act upon it.
It would be much easier if I’d lie to myself.
Actually, just to block a thought or an event wouldn’t make me feel a thing.
This means that I don’t really mind it, it doesn’t...
Day 49:
I think, I analyse, I worry, I assume, I judge.
I want to express it, I want to share it, I want it out of my mind.
Once it gets out of my mind I forget about it.
Once I say it out loud I don’t feel it.
Who to tell? What to tell? Has never been an issue to me!
I trusted easily.
I felt secure with sharing.
But this has changed !
All the sharing can’t be done...
Day 48:
Love is misery. Love is constant worry. Love is a series of doubts. Love is disappointment. Love is pain. Love is an excuse for desperate people to be sad. Love is depressed peoples way of blaming others for what they r feeling. Who ever said love is eternal happiness I’m sure was trying to impress. When in love you can’t stop worrying about the end. When in love you...
Day 47:
One word about me from different people:
Scorpio. One of kind. Faz3aaa. classic freak. Kind. Mamlo7a. 6ayba. indescribable. Fa8ma. Bnt 3ami. Amazing. Caring. Ml7. Missed.واقعيه
Awesome. Unique. Jamelah. Y3neny. Cool. Sister. Sal. Salooo6.
Inspirational. Sweet. 7sofa 3ala wagtna tha . thegelat dmmm. A6yab glb shfta f 7ayaaaaaaati. Giving. generous. joyful. fun. white hearted. loyal...
Day 46:
Started off as an entertainment.
Shifted to interest.
Moved towards friendship.
then it became comfort.
This all lead to attachment.
Nothing was planned, nothing was meant, nothing was said.
It all happened over a night.
Must n must nots got confusing.
This caused a mess.
Not knowing when to push, not believing that we can pull.
This all assures no boredom but constant rush....
Day 45:
What is it that triggers those feelings?
What is it that makes me switch from one extreme to another?
What is it that ruins my almost perfect day?
What is it that makes me go into thoughts?
What is it ..
All those questions I’ve tried MY BEST to answer but failed.
Used to be so simple, a word or an action will ruin the day.
But nowadays, a nothing could cause a lot....
